It's winter.

 What treasure waits within Your scars
This gift of freedom gold can't buy
I bought the world and sold my heart
You traded heaven to have me again.

[Hillsong -Touch the sky]

It's winter here and too many things are happening in my life. New problems that it seems like old ones. I felt lonely and I wanted to give everything up. I didn’t  see myself pulling this time off. I didn’t  want to celebrate happy days, I was gloomy, I missed so much my family. I thought that if I didn’t have my family by my side I didn’t want to celebrate anything. I understood something, part of that family was with me already, so I was blind and I was watching the pain in my other part of my family. God remembers me again something important. I had my family right here, my loving husband will never abandon me but maybe I was who want to be apart from him because of my sadness. I had right reasons, I could celebrate whatever I wanted and that’s what I did. To celebrate my days with him and it was unforgettable and wonderful. I didn’t  think it could be like it was. God tore that veil covering my eyes and I saw it there, smiling me and led me again. 

It was to be a sad Christmas time, I didn’t even think about it. I was surrounded by problems more and more and I was disposed to forget every beautiful day. I was going to pretend that everything was okay, my face was reflecting my bad condition and I was taking everything for granted. After taking a good decision, in my opinion, this Christmas time will be almost perfect also my feelings are changing better and better and the more I think about my situation, the less I care about. What do I have a God for? He’s more powerful and smarter than me. I’d better let myself on his hand and trust more in who knows what is good for me. 

This Christmas time is going to be wonderful. I made new things, getting back things I used to love and not just inside my family, out of them something that I didn’t expect is holding me up. I think I like that. I changed the way I was seeing my life and now I’m seeing everything completely different. I see this month with God’s eyes and it seems something I want to hold always. It’s something that warms my heart. This year is about to finish but I’m starting something new again, something that I want to uphold near me. I’m not going to wish that I could live like this ever, I’m going to work for it, I could get used to this so that I don’t forget this feeling.  I’d rather think that God has something new for me for the next year. I love that and the same time I’m afraid for the unknown.   

More days like this ~

There are a few days in my life which I want to hold up forever. Those days which you later remember quite clear. Those memories earn totally my attention and I can feel like if I could stay there again. This week I obtained another memory cannot be easily erased.

When the people are working always are complained because they can't make something with their life (I was one of them) but when the same people are out of work then they don't make anything worth with their life. Well, since 2 weeks I'm unemployed and one day in this week I decided to make things that I never could make when I was working.  Seeing a dawn... 

Have you ever seen a dawn? Never! I haven't ever seen a dawn but I got my opportunity and it was amazing. In fact, this dawn what I saw wasn't the perfect dawn because it was cold and it was a little raining, but I got the better company and the most attitudes. Yes that I could stay in my warm bed, it was seven o'clock and outside it was cold, but I thought: "If I don't make this thing right now... I don't know about future, so it's better making it today." My honey quitted complaining; we had a couple of apples and went outside. We faced the wind, clashed against the sharp cold and found protection under our umbrella.

It was wonderful and don't want to forget it, never. We like walking but we like most walking in mountain and that is what we did. We went at the mountain holding our hands each other and went finding the most beautiful dawn. We found something else, something more important. We found a new memory for treasure. We were surrounded by trees and bushes, the sky passed of black towards blue, the drizzle stopped and we got beautiful pictures.

  No doubt I want to repeat this day again.